Thanks Buddy for the retort n for the kind words.
I had already read ur post or should I say the inspirational post during my 1st retake = Loved the lines of ur GF & ur retaliation with the awesome 700.
My probs : very diffcicult for me to put things at the backburner for 3 -4 months, self analysis reveals I like doing a critical analysis ( rights/ Wrongs) and then pounce ASAP. Furthermore very difficult to continue with my existing job ( A run of the mill company which i consciously chose / a calculated risk that I took so that i could devote more time to my studies, leaving a cushy/fortune 2 company ) = so the equation now stands to be : either i continue with the Grind and give GMAt a conclusive/parting shot and come out with a YUMMY OR I leave everything to the back / search for a new job and do a YUCK
Quant : I know i need to hone my skills . i can manage a 44-45 but still haven't evolved to be a 48-49-50 material. I still don't have the confidence that whatever questions Gmat throws at me will not shake me off - Guess this confidence is very much essential though knowing very well that there will be some toughies on which one will have to guess n move on.
Verbal : I really know next to nothing about the sobbing story that i encountered, it's not that I am feigning to know nothing : I am confident of my SC skills and those are not over estimation or that i am trying to put on airs , surfacing from my rigorous study schedules/ recognisation of patterns/ sinking and embossing of concepts tested.
For CR : still unsure whether this caused the catastrophe or not
For RC : i am quite a binary person : Mistakes hovered between 3-7 in all my practise tests, but during my 2nd attempt I was managing to narrow the error gaps to quite a good extent
Can the reason be attributed to the no of tests that i took in frenzy = unsure :
I never felt elated for the scores ( 700-770 ) that popped on my screen during my practice exams rather was circumspect to find whether I got those for the right reasons and not because I remembered the answers.
Exhaustion : i didn't feel any sort of exhaustion during my 4 hr stint, though was on a complete fast.
Still unable to zone in on the reasons ; having said that ,After reading all of yours come back stories I am seriously broaching of giving it a final shot.
To abridge : if i can converge my thoughts into actions, my strategy will be
Quant : I want to go for GMAT CLUB tests
this time = give a nose dive and continue till I am confident that I have evolved into a Q 50 material.
Verbal : CR : i want to practise through LSAT ones / RC : From gmatprep docs
Dear All : please let know how to take things forward / be critical to the core ( I don't want any paly paly talks = i take the ownership of my failure & I will definitely bring myself back) = ur criticisms/unbiased suggestions will allow me to dwell in the right direction / gain an alternate perspective/ redress my mistakes and help me in achieving my dream.
Sorry again for the long post and thx to all of you for being all ears.