This post is meant to be a catharsis of my MBA process. I woke up this morning and as I looked at my essays, for the first time in this process I felt...tired.
My MBA process started last November. Yes Novemeber 2007. I decided that it was time for me to move onto a different career path and realized that MBA is the only way to do so. I set things in motion, registering for the GMAT in February 2008 and that's when I stumbled onto GmatClub. I had an idea about what a "story" should be like, but by going through hundreds of posts on GmatClub, I finally gained a sense of perspective - of what works and what doesn't. Small things like addressing Why now? Why this school? etc - knowlede I would never have gained if I had started this process cold.
I studied for the GMAT, giving it 2 hours every day and 9 hours on weekends, but my score of 720 dissapointed me. Don't get me wrong, I am not disillussioned by any means that this is a bad score - but I knew I could do better. I decided to not think abou the GMAT but instead set out to craft my story..in March.
So yes - I started writing my essays in March. For a month I researched schools, went through employment reports, reached out to atleast 50 students overall spanning the 5 -6 schools I am interested in. In parallel, I started to put together my story on paper. Since March, I have opened and edited my essays every single day..until today when I noticed that the final version of my goals essay for Columbia is draft-version 32. 32!!!! And that's just Columbia...
I registered for the GMAT again for August, and started my studying again in June. Back to the 2 hrs every day, 9 hrs on weekends...my final score - 750. No more excuses now..
I am about 95% done with all my essays - and given that I am 2 months out before the R1 deadlines are due, I feel fairly comfortable that I can finish things up. I need to check back with my recommenders, start to fill out the forms themselves and I am still left with visiting the schools - which I am doing in September. I continue to reach out the students in my target schools and every week I get a reply from one of them that give me another aspect to add to my app..
So why am I saying all this? Cos I am finally running on empty..this process which started last September has taken so much out of me, that I need a time-out just so that I have energy remaining for the final lap - the applications and hopefully interviews themselves. All those Friday nights spent drafting essays, reading essays or studying for GMAT instead of partying is slowly but surely takings it toll. I fully understand that the amount of time does not correlate directly with admission results, but at the end of all this I can atleast say that I do not have regrets. I am by no means disillusioned that this process will result in success as I know that there are simply too many variables in play..but I am positive because I have given it my best.
I understand many on this board may be going though the same thing, some may have started the process MUCH earlier (looking at the number of next year's applicants on this board) but how do I get past this? I am definetely taking a week off - and coming back to this final leg with renewed energy.
The process is JUST starting and I cannot afford to burn out..