Need advise - what do I do now?

Hi all,

I have written the GMAT 4 times. I've given all the OG mocks, all the Manhattan mocks, one Veritas mock, one Magoosh mock. I've done all the practice questions on the mba official guide page.

Let me give you the scores first.

OG mock #1 - 710. V 37, Q 50
OG mock #2 - 710. V 37, Q 49
OG mock #3 - 710. V 38, Q 49
OG mock #4 - 720. V 35, Q 51
OG mock #5 - 740. V 39, Q 50
OG mock #6 - 740. V 41, Q 50

GMAT EXAM scores-
#1 - 680. V 34. Q 49
#2 - 570. V 23. Q 47
#3 - 690. V 38. Q 47
#4 - 700. V 40. Q 46 (Online exam)

I'm supremely tired with this whole exercise but I will explain what went on. I'd really appreciate some insight into this

I studied the prep material from Magoosh starting July, I completed their entire syllabus in 2 months. I thought Ill take one exam in the beginning of Septamber, and take another one at the end of September/start of Oct, in case the 1st one bombs.

I was happy with my 680, because I felt like 1 month was good enough for me to raise my score to 710ish. During this time I took Mock #2 and #3. But 2 days before the exam I panicked and took 2 back to back practice exams (MGMAT and Magoosh).I barely slept before the exam and did much worse (570) on the second GMAT, which I took in October.

I tried to collect myself in October, took more than 5 to 6 weeks to prepare for my 3rd attempt. This time, I focused more on OG practice questions, and worked on getting my verbal score up. I took mock #4,#5 and #6 during this time and scored well in Quant (51,50,50).

Maybe I felt slightly overconfident in Quant, I lost complete track of time in this 3rd attempt. There was an easy geometry problem, but I got stuck for about 8 minutes and didn't even realize it. Because of this, I only had around 10 to 12 min to complete the last 10 questions. I winged a lot of it. And got 47 in my quant. This totally and completely shattered my confidence in Quant.

I thought maybe there was an issue with number properties and basic geometry, so I redid those chapters and tried to manage my time. But today when I took the GMAT online, I found the Quant section to be very difficult. I was blanking out, feeling terrible and blindly guessing on some. I again had only 14 min to complete 10 questions. I had no idea what I was doing.

I dont understand how my quant is going down. My verbal has risen and I'm happy with it. But MBA schools focus more on Quant. And I don't know what to do.

It's already 27th Nov, and I'd like to leave next year. I havent even started on my application/essay/TOEFL/LOR.

What do I do? Should I write the GMAT again?

Mental health - its been pretty bad. I had a bad breakdown in August. Another in October. Today I had a mild anxiety attack. It's rough to manage this and my full time job which is quite demanding(10-11hr/day).
I've been exercising, meditating, going to therapy. I feel like I've done all I can in terms of my mental health but I'm unable to keep my nerves at bay.

Prep material:
Magoosh prep material
MGMAT mocks
OG 2020 book
OG practice questions and mock exams
GMAT ninja videos
CR powerscore
Manhattan Geometry, number properties, algebra, fractions

Profile:
30 you old, Indian female.
I'm a Program Manager in a tech company.

Let me know if you need any details about my prep. I really do need some solid advice.

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