Venting Thread

just when i want to become a total bum, my mentor sends me an email and tells me we need to do mock interviews. i want to RELAX, but i guess i need to prepare for the next hurdle (should I be so lucky).

Haha. I feel ya, LB. This is why you should never again look at, think about, or be near your application essays. (Not until you get an interview, anyway.) When I printed out my HBS application, for example, I studiously averted my eyes at all times, approaching the printer with a nonchalant sideways sidle and the zip! - I pulled the app off the machine and thrust it under my arm. I keep all my final apps in a folder hidden under other folders in a corner of my room so they can't taunt me in my darkest hours of insecurity. When I opened up my Stanford essays to help me generate material for my Stern essays, I deliberately hit a few stray keys so that if I noticed any typos I could pretend I had just made them. Yes, this process has made me crazy.

I do this when it's really late at night, too, and I don't want to know what time it is: I approach with my peripheral vision and then cover those evil blinking digits with a piece of paper! Ha!

Yeah...the best part is, I had been GREAT about this on my own--it was only when my friend happened to look at the essay once more after I had submitted it that this happened. Oy vey. I guess whatever happens happens. But I wish I didn't know!!!

This process has made me nutso too. Went to the gym for the first time tonight in months, and am a happy camper.

Submitted Chicago and LBS. Now will have to work on INSEAD/Oxford and HEC. Different sets of essays, different stories to tell...the pain continues.

AUGH I DON'T WANT TO WAIT ANYMORE


sorry...

Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock.

I am pretty good about distracting myself outside of work--getting back in shape, hanging out with friends I haven't seen in months, getting my life in order, etc. But when I'm at work, I can't resist checking forums and compulsively checking for a Wharton invite, even though I know that most won't go out until the week of Feb. 15.

AAAAAAH. Just had to get that out.

Yea, I know what you mean. Waiting sucks. I need a drink, but it's only morning, and I'm at work.

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PS:- this is how I find myself staring at people, laptop, WCs etc. A blank stare

LOL! The crazy thing is that I know EXACTLY what you mean. I don't think I've ever been so......spacey in my life.

Ha ha. The blank stare is because I try to rehearse answers to why MBA, why now etc in my mind.



Yeah, I know. I sometimes scare the housekeeping staff, the early morning dog-walkers with my stares

This is such a great thread. Thanks for starting it. Sometimes I do have to wonder why I want to studying hours every night, write essays after essays, and pay hundreds of dollars to go back to school...

Good luck everyone!

Yaaaaargggggghhhhhhhhhhhh.

I was fine until this week, but now my productivity has plummeted. So has my workload, for whatever reason, which I would normally appreciate, but it just means I have more time to check my e-mail. I disabled my pop-up e-mail notifier so I wouldn't jump out of my seat every time I got a message, but now I just have my account open all the time. And GMAT Club, I love ya, but I need to stop refreshing every couple of minutes.

I also continue to have a bipolar love/hate relationship with my own candidacy. Brilliant. Boring. Mindblowing. Mundane. Qualified. Clueless. Fresh perspective. Freakazoid.

And I guess, ultimately, I don't need an admissions committee to tell me that I am: all those things.

This. Exactly. Plus my gut feeling is telling me I am not getting in anywhere I applied except for the schools that I am lukewarm on. Also, I am regretting not sending an application to where I went undergrad. I would really be happy to go back there but my husband does not seem too excited about moving to the great state of North Carolina.

Haha, yes. I can't tell you how many times I've mulled my essays over in my mind with exactly those wavering sentiments.

How could I tell adcom that?? No, wait, why wouldn't I tell adcom that??? What a risky topic choice; I'd rip that application up. What a bold and exciting topic choice; I'd admit me.

I love it. As long as we get in at a school we love, the ride will have been totally worth it and we'll look back a few months from now and laugh.

really wishing i would have been able to apply RD 1. my lease is up next month and they wont allow month-to-month. i won't have decisions until the end of the month so i don't know if i'll be staying put or moving. no way i find a 3-4 month lease, the only option is to rent a room and move in with strangers. i don't live in the same area as my family and none of my friends really own homes here, they're all in apartments also

I support that sentiment. Though, I particularly enjoy the constant rush to the highs and lows that only uncertainty can bring out. All I can hope for is that I will be able to retain my countenance on decision day, but for now I look back fondly on this at times miserable, at times euphoric but undeniably cathartic process.

Ditto. Ditto. Ditto. And an extra Ditto just for good measure.

Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This waiting is sooooooooooooooooooo friggin' hard!!! I can't get anything done at work. I keep checking forums/status every 5 minutes. Argh!!! I thought waiting from 3 schools would spread out the stress, but it has tripled it!!! Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think I'm going out of my mind, which is NOT a good thing at work.

Worst thing is that I find myself calling my mom - yes, my mom - to talk about the stress and stuff. This is friggin' sad.