Last year, I completely botched the real GMAT. I scored in the 80th percentile in Verbal, but somewhere in the 20th percentile in math. -The latter was nowhere near my capacity, I was not great in math, but I typically scored between the 50-70th percentile on practice exams. I had major test anxiety and noticed it considerably on the math section, which happens to be the first section of the exam.
Knowing that my capacity in math was low despite botching the test, I joined GMATClub for its unique gmat challenges. I found everything, including the forums and newsletters very very helpful. I bought the gmat challenges, studied and practiced everyday.
2 days before my second and last GMAT, I took a free
Manhattan GMAT practice exam and score 700 Q48 V39. I felt it matched my progress as I had averaged 2/3 correct answers in the (gmatclub) math challenges and above 30 correct in the verbal challenges.
The night before the GMAT, I slept early, but from anxiety, woke up at 3am. I went back to sleep. Then woke up at 5am! I couldnt believe what was happening to me! I went back to sleep, but it was no good, I woke up at 8am and my exam was in the morning so I had to leave for it feeling awful. To make matters worse, my anxiety never left me. In short, I ended up bombing the GMAT AGAIN! To make it all more interesting, this time, I scored in the 20th percentile in Verbal. -Absolutely nutz!
I now feel that my performance is a crap shoot and that I have spent wayyyy too much of my time and my life studying for this. I really don't know what to do. I don't know whether I should just give up or not. I have sooo many GMAT books and material that I've exhausted. I really question whether I hit the same realization of the person who took the exam 20 times and got the same score. Everybody on here has been real nice and helpful, but I think I'm now looking for some brutal honesty. When do you make that realization I alluded to?
and If I should give it one more chance, how do I measure myself henceforth? I feel that nothing has been indicative of judgement day.