Dejected, heartbroken after months of preparation. Need advice

Hi

I am writing this post the day after I gave my 1st Gmat. Let me give a debrief so that you can know about me and my preparation better.

I have been preparing for about 6 months for Gmat. I am an engineer from India. When I first took OG, I found maths to be pretty manageable and in fact easy. I am not great in maths but not bad either. I thought OG had only few tough questions in quant.

I then started working on verbal. RC seemed OK. I could get more than 80% correct. CR and SC was a challenge for me, especially SC. I could easy questions in SC but tough one. Same for CR.

After doing OG, I explored gmatclub and came to know about how to actually prepare for gmat. I got the MGMAT books for no properties, word problem, fractions, SC , CR and RC.

I completed them all. They are fantastic. I could definitely feel the improvement. However, my mgmat and veritas cat score were not that great.

MGMAT1-3 : 590 to 640 range.
Veritas 1 - 680
veritas -2 - 620
veritas 3-4: 600-640 range again.

Finally I decided to give Gmatprep1 and scored 650.

I was disappointed. I have been taking advice of a friend who is intelligent and smart and has good knowledge about gmat. He got around 740 in his 1st attempt. He got more than 700 in almost all CAT. He told me that no magic will happen at gmat and it doesn't matter what I am scoring at mgmat etc, all that matters is gmatprep and I will score in same range 650.

He advised me to take e-gmat for verbal and keep working on quant. I took verbal online from e-gmat and worked about a month. That is super awesome course. I loved the SC. I knew so much more. CR was decent. I did not do much RC as I thought that I was ok in that.

I started doing gmatclub mocks. I scored b/w 44-49 in 8 mocks I gave for quant and disappointing 30-35 in verbal mocks. I was doing very well in concept quiz of e-gmat and in their quiz section, my accuracy was 70% ( note: I only did medium and hard question in egmat, not the easy one. So I expected my accuracy would be even better in normal Gmat).

In 2nd gmatprep , I scored 680. However after that my mgmat and veritas score still was hanging around 650. I thought may be its time to give gmat. I hoped that mocks are much harder and most probably I would score better.

In my gmat I got 630. I am very sad, disappointed, heartbroken. I am suffering from headache and constantly thinking about same.

Problem is I dont know what to do now. I have taken one of the best course. I know so much. I do make mistakes in tough questions but now I don't understand what to do next. Please help. I really need to score 700+ to get in a good MBA college in India. The min would be 680.

All I can see to improve is to continue on gmatclub test for quant since I find others far too easy ( although in actual gmat, the questions were not that tough. So I should work on getting all question right even in 600 -700 segment. I know my mistakes. sometimes I dont read the question well and make silly mistake. I will work on that)

For verbal, I have no idea what to do. After reading mgmat SC guide twice and doing egmat, I think I have gone through enough concept files. Any help would be appreciated. I get motivated after seeing that people recover from bad score but my problem is different.

Most of success stories are one where they were not prepared for gmat in 1st attempt and then took nice approach to study. In my case, I did everything I thought was theoretically right. I even took 1 and a half week break before exam in order to be in the zone. Gave many mocks to be very comfortable before the exam week.

What should I do next. I really want to improve in 2 mnths ( max 3 months) so that I can score better before my dream college deadline.

Thanks in advance.