First of all I want to thank you for taking your time to read this post.
The first ever mock exam I took was GMATPrep 1. I used it as an assessment exam so that I was able to determine my weaknesses and my strengths. I scored 650 (Q44 and V36). I purchased the Wiley official guides and the
Manhattan books in order to refreshen the quant concepts, the grammar rules and the strategies for CR and RC. After 2 months of intense revision (averaging 8 hours per day), I decided to take the second mock. As soon as I started the mock I got very stressed because I couldn't solve the first question immediately. Time started running out and it was a nightmare of an experience. The verbal section followed and because the quant section had drained me I performed badly in verbal. It was as if my concept of common sense had completely left me and if the question wasn't EXACTLY of the type that I had seen before I would get lost in the meaning, the structure and the concept of it. It was as if I forgot how to speak English. I ended up with a score of 580 (Q44 and V28). Obviously, after having put in hundreds of hours and solving many more questions, I was extremely disappointed whilst frustrated that I had wasted so much time. I decided to purchase the Manhattan mock exams and solved the first one, which I scored 520 (Q38 and V23) in. I reached this score after having sacrificed many things that I enjoy and really having buckled down for a solid couple hundred of hours. The problem is that I have now reached a point where my motivation is very low and the fear of the exam very large. Whenever faced with a question I immediately see it as a huge obstacle that is extremely tiring to overcome.
I have ADHD and am afraid that it takes its toll on the exam stress that I am experiencing. I keep overthinking the difficulty of the problems and always have the ticking clock in my mind. I am very confident that I know the vast majority of the concepts and different theories well and am comfortable in applying them in singular cases. I don't know why I struggle so much when being faced by 37 and 41 consecutive questions when I have solved over 100 questions in a single day. My knowledge of the tested content and concepts is large while my confidence is very low. Due to the lack of confidence, I struggle to focus on the question in front of me and whenever I answer the question I automatically assume that I got it incorrect. This mindset that I have adopted is very counterproductive and I feel as if I should be achieving far higher scores in my mock exams than I currently do. Does anyone know of a similar case or has anyone read about a comparable complication before and could offer help? Is there a specific strategy that could benefit someone with ADHD? How can I utilise my acquired knowledge in an exam environment? How can I get my confidence and motivation back?
I am sure that if my mindset changes somehow, I will be able to reach my desired scores
Thank you once again