My GMAT JourneyDear my fellow GMAT Clubbers,
I have been a member of this community for almost 16 months now. However, I have always been a lurker, seldom posting now and then. Today, having finished my two official GMAT exams over the course of the last 90 days after a year of preparation, and having been filled up with mixed feelings about the result (more on that later), I have decided to spend the whole morning to sit down and to start my first GMAT journey ever. This post will mostly be served as my self-reflection and an ask for help from the community. I am not a good writer; however, I will try to arrange my thoughts nice and clean. And this post will be longer than an average GMAT journey because it contains some personal events. So please bear with me.
9/2020: Firstly, I feel that it is only fair for me to provide my background in order to provide a clearer picture of me. I am a 24-year-old Asian male currently living in Southeast Asia. I majored in hospitality management at a decent university (top 100) in the East Coast in the US, worked in the industry for over a year before the COVID hit. I got laid off and decided to go back to my country since it also had been four years since I last saw my parents. At the time, I had no intention of going to graduate school; I was not even acknowledged of the existence of business school. On the flight back home, which lasted over 24 hours, I sat next to a girl who I thought was only a couple of years older than I was. The tedious flight gave us something to both complain about, and we naturally chat up to forget about the long flight. Long story short, she is four years older than I am, just finished her MBA programs and was about to find work then the COVID hit. We shared some similarities: same major in undergrad, same home city, and the fact that she was too lost at my age. She told me about how the decision to get the MBA program changed her life. I was captivated by her stories, and I knew then that I wanted to experience what she had. Before we parted, she suggested that I could look more into the MBA if I was interested. I thought to myself ‘You know what, I actually might. I could spend a few days looking into this MBA program. The worst case is that I wasted a few days of my life. Furthermore, I had to quarantine in a remote area for two weeks anyway, so it might give me something to do.” That was how I first met the GMAT.
10/2020 – 12/2020: After two weeks in quarantine, I started to learn the basic of the GMAT: the exam structure, what it is good for, registration fee, etc. However, when I arrived home, I decided to give myself a three-month break because I had been working and studying non-stop since I set foot in college. During those three months, I travelled, ate and spent time with my parents. I was feeling that I never left. Those three months were the best time of my life, hands down.
1/2021 – 3/2021: The New Year came. I started a new job as a brand management in a luxury hotel in my city. It was at that time that I started looked into the GMAT again. I decided that I would self-study, and only pay money for the exam registration fee. After a month of looping around, I was overwhelmed by the information. It was not until March of 2021 that I stumbled upon the GMAT Club.
4/2021 – 11/2021: I joined the GMAT Club in March of 2021. I spent literally weeks to read any guidance I could find before started diving into the actual content of the exam. I then first took the first free mock test from OG package to see where I stood – a solid 500 (15V/41Q). I then spent a week to read a beginner guide for self-study on the GMAT Club and proceeded accordingly. During the rest of the year 2021, I only used the GMAT Club, because it was free and comprehensive. It even offered free mock tests during certain holidays. Usually, my day went like this:
- Monday-Friday: work from 7 a.m. to 4 p.m. Study for the GMAT from 7 p.m. to 9 p.m.
- Saturday-Sunday: Study for the GMAT from 8 a.m. to 10 a.m.; another section from 3 p.m. to 5 p.m.; and the last section from 7 p.m. to 9 p.m.
I usually spent one-day verbal/ one-day quant. I had to admit it was extremely hard to balance between work and study. During the weekdays, my efficiency was not so high because after long days at work, I just wanted to sleep when I came home. And during the weekend, I had to spent time with relatives, friends, and family. But I decided to stick to the schedule because I’d rather learn something than nothing. I took mock tests once every 90 days, using the free resources that were recommended on the GMAT club. I could see some improvement, but not much. By September of 2021, after six months of working and studying, my verbal constantly hovered around the 26-30 range, and my quant hovered around the 43-47 range. I did not know then my method of studying was counterproductive. I tried aimlessly questions after questions for six months. And at that point, my score got stuck. I knew that my method of study – keep answering questions and moving on without read the answers carefully – could only get me so far. I decided to take short break from the GMAT to re-strategize my plan.
However, something came up. My parents both got hit by COVID in October. My break from the GMAT had to extend because I needed to take care of my parents. For the first week, it was like they just got the flu, and they really seemed to get better. But on my father’s birthday in October, my father passed away. My mom’s condition was getting better but then took a very quick turn after my father’s death. We were both distressed. Then, I took a break from work to take care of my mom and of my father’s funeral. My mom’s condition did not get any better, no matter how hard I tried. One month after my father’s passing, my mom followed him. In a month, I lost both of my parents. My world was collapsing. The experience was ineffable. After take care of my mom’s passing, I could not do anything. I could not even eat. I became a walking skeleton. I was the only member of my family to survive, and at that time, some dark thoughts started creeping into me. I could not control them.
12/2021: I decided to leave everything behind and asked for help from the Buddha monks from the temple on a mountain far away from my home city. They were known to be immune to the mundane life. I knew then that they could teach me how to grieve properly. They taught me how to let go of the past, how to meditate, and how to proceed with my life. They saved my life from my creeping dark thoughts. I have been living with them since then.
For some unknown reasons, some time in December of 2021, I started picking up the GMAT again. To me, the GMAT became something that I could control in my life. I knew some of you might thought that I am making all of this up, to make this story more spiritually, but I am not. I decided to start the GMAT from scratch, to really put my mind into it, because I knew in my heart that I could do it. This was something that I could take under my control.
1/2022 – 3/2022: The year of 2021 had not been kind to me, and basically my year of 2021 had shattered my sense of self. As of January of 2022, I still lived with the monks on the side of the mountain in the northern region of my country, and I still am.
This time, I knew I had to change my method of study, and I did. Below were several changes that I had made:
- Focus on one thing at a time. Having been learned from my past experience, I decided to spend less time on the GMAT than I did before – no more aimlessly attempting to answer questions. I only studied for almost 90 minutes every day from 9 a.m. to 10.30 a.m. I still did one day of quant, one day of verbal. And during those 90 minutes, I really tried to understand to the core of the questions. I read all the relevant explanations in the comment sections, all the relevant topics, and sometimes even posted some explanations of my own. Some days, I only went through eight verbal questions, and I was happy with that. After all, what was the point of solving thousands of questions without understanding just one of them.
- Self-reflecting. I spent hours to think back of what I had learnt that day and what could have been improved. My favorite spot would be under the waterfall for self-reflection. Every day, I sat there for half an hour in the morning. The noise and the coldness of the waterfall just suppressed everything else and made me to really focus on myself.
- Be patient. You can’t rush anything in life, as you can’t in the GMAT exam. If I could not get one type of question right, I would go online and search specifically for that questions till I understood. There was a big chance that somebody had faced with the same problem as I did. Read, and truly understand, no matter how long it took. Time and speed will come later if you are patient.
Personal note: I know that I did not get into the specific allocation of my time, but I truly believe those three principles set the foundation of the mindset if you want to succeed in anything in the exam and in life. They sound simple, but sometimes people forget to do them on a daily basis. If you can get those principles right, you will do well in anything, whether it is the GMAT or not.
4/2022: After three months of prepping with 90 minutes a day, I decided to signed up for the actual exam on April 5th. I did not attempt another mock test. Actually, my only mock test was the one a year ago when I scored a 500. One day before the exam day, I went down to the city and spent a night there. My exam started at 8:30 in the morning. I woke up at 5 a.m. as usual, and meditated for an hour before going to the testing center. I was nervous because that was my first time to take the GMAT exam.
The quant was fairly easier than the questions on the GMAT Club. However, the verbal section caused me some real trouble. In the RC, I could not register information from one passage. It was as if it was written in another language. The SC was a little tough. I could only get down to two options. The CR questions were in the same level as the ones on the GMAT Clubs. I finished my verbal to my last second, and I got 10 minutes to spare in the quant section. After over 3 hours, I scored a 670 (50Q/30V). I knew my verbal could get better. But I was surprised to see my quant score was so high. I was certain that at least 5 of my quant were wrong, but maybe I was lucky because those questions were experimental.
Below are the materials that I used:
- Problem Solving: GMAT Club. I recommend only try the questions with the ‘official question’ tag. Remember, you need to get a solid foundation first before even think to attempt the questions. There are several sources out there that you can solidify your weak area. Just Google them.
- Data Sufficiency: I follow the basic A/D-B/C/E split. Just remember that you don’t have to actually solve the question.
- Reading Comprehension: Usually I could eliminate 3 answers immediately because of their irrelevance. I recommend using the website ReadTheory.org to practice. That website is adaptive like the GMAT. For RC, you just need to read slowly in a timely manner. I would definitely recommend against skimming because it was a waste of time.
- Sentence Correction: I only followed the GMAT Ninja channel on YouTube.
- Critical Reasoning: Try to practice only the official questions and try to really understand them to the core by reading all the comments below. Remember to take them slowly because the OG questions are finite, so make them count.
- AWA: chineseburned template. I only studied this one day in advance and scored a 5. Remember, if you are decent at CR, the AWA is a breeze for you because CR and AWA both require you to spot the logical flaw.
- IR: I didn’t practice. I feel that IR is a combination of PS, CR and some basic math skills could get you through. But I only got a 4, so what do I know.
4/2022-7/2022: For these three months, I focused solely on the verbal section. I knew that all three of my areas (RC, CR, SC) were very weak. I could only wish that my verbal improved as fast as did my quant. I redid all of the OG questions on the GMAT Club. I tried to read the comment sections more carefully to see if I missed anything. However, I realized that I could only improve by a little, not much. I knew something was wrong, because if I knew that I could improve a little while having scored a 30 verbal in the previous exam, there was something that I could not see. I then attempted the OG Test 2 from the package and scored a 720 (49Q/39V). I was surprised to see my verbal score to be that high. It was not right; it was supposed to be lower. However, I proceeded to register for another exam exactly three months from my first, thinking that maybe my verbal actually improved by that much. I signed up for the same time slot and with the same order as before.
7/2022: This time everything was unexpected, both good and bad.
- Quant: I remembered vividly that I ran into real trouble with a string of questions from 9-12, all DS questions. I spent over 15 minutes for those four questions before deciding to moving on. Then the rest of the quant section went unsurprisingly easy, like extremely easy. Those questions definitely belonged to 500 – 600 level on the GMAT club. I thought to myself then ‘I must have screwed up’ The rest of the quant was so easy that I finished it with 25 minutes to spare. I expected my quant to be 45. My mood went down because of how bad I did in the first section.
- Verbal: This time the RC was definitely easier than the RC section in my previous attempt. However, the verbal section this time hit me with several hard SC and CR questions. But I answered them smoothly, or so I thought. I finished the verbal with 5 minutes to spare. I was certain I could score at least a 35.
- AWA: the same as before. I studied the template by chineseburned one day earlier.
- IR: the same as before. Although I got stuck in the flow graph of the first question.
And here came the results:
- Quant: I got a 51. I had to look at my screen twice to not fool myself. How on earth did I get that 51? I swore I was uncertain in at least 6 of the questions, and I was pretty sure I got them wrong. And what was up with all of those easy questions in the latter half of the test. Wasn’t it supposed to be an indicator that I answered those previous questions incorrect.
- Verbal: I got a 28. Again, I had to look at my screen twice to not fool myself. That score was extremely low, even lower than the first time. I did not know what went wrong. I thought I would have scored higher, or at least the same score as last time.
- AWA/IR: the same as before.
For the materials that I used this time, I had used nothing but the GMAT Club. Maybe this time I really hit the plateau. Maybe this time I really needed help with my verbal skill. I knew it was in my ability that I could do better. But maybe this time I need an objective assessment, from a tutor, to point out my weakness.
Onwards: As of the moment I posted this journey, it has been a week since I last took my second exam. Since then, I have read every single one of the GMAT Debriefs on the GMAT Club and have encountered stories of people who were hard stuck in the verbal section. However, each of them recommended different GMAT companies. I knew that this time I could not self-study because if I could not improve my verbal by then, I could not do so now. So, please help me with any advice you can give. I could try to scoop up some money and invest in a verbal course so that the next time I did the GMAT exam it would be the last time. I did not expect a high score, but I do expect to do it to the best of my capability, and I know that I am nowhere near there.
I have been looking around and heard that E-GMAT and TTP are two of many solid choices for verbal section. What do you think?
And thank you for the patience. I know this post is extremely long, and most parts of it are not GMAT-related. But I think I owe it to myself and to this community to write this. Again, I am looking to improve my verbal score and am ready to put in any work necessary.