Today I gave the GMAT Classic test. It feels like that I have successfully landed myself in one of the two crowded camps: the " I am happy/satisfied/okay with my score" and the "what the hell happened? even after all those hours of preparation, this?".
Well if you haven't guessed it already from the subject of this post, yes, I landed in the second one. This is going to be my first post in the GMAT club and I expect nothing. May be this is just to vent out a little or to hear similar stories from others just to calm my self. Trust me, I did not expect to log in to GMAT club today after my test, since I was expecting to score good and wrap up the GMAT madnes. To conclude the final academic pursuit of my life.
To give you a background, I have more or less a decent academics and was considered a good student in my school and university days. I am from engineering background, so my mathematical ability is also fair. In the case of GMAT quants, I was scoring consistently in the range of 46 to 48 in GMAT official mocks. Yes, i bought extra mock CATs from GMAT and was scoring 48 ,46, 47 etc in QR. Not excellent like 49-51 but okay. In the case of verbal section, i was pretty weak initially and was scoring in the range of 22 to 25. But I worked hard to learn the concepts, and finally brought up the score to range of 38, 37, 35 etc in the official mocks. I did not enroll to any course. GMATClub was the only place where you could find me after my work hours. Altogether, I was expecting a score not less than 680, or 670, based on my performance in the mocks.
Test Day: I ended up scoring 640 (44 Q, 35 V, 6 IR). I am still in disbelief. Not even above 650 but sub-650. From a 580 in the first unprepared diagnostic test to a fully prepped meagre 640? You can say that I am currently in the 'denial' stage of the '5 stages of grief'. So it's better that I finish this post before I start crossing into the next stages.
How on earth did I tank my quants score after scoring 47 to 48 in official mocks. Yes, i do remember being a bit anxious during the exam. I was doing my best to control my heartbeat and calm myself down. It might be anxiety or 'test excitement', I don't know. But this alone does not explain the low quant score, since I have given exams in similar scenarios and scored much better. It's not the first time that I am sitting in a competitive exam. So what explains it? I don't know. I know that I am not this much dumb. Or did my IQ decrease throughout the years? I am still scratching my head. The worst thing about it is not knowing what went wrong.
What do the GMAT vets in this forum conclude from a score of 640? How do the BSchools look at 640? Is it even worth applying to a good Indian Bschool with this score?
I know that 640 may not help me to get into the school that I want, or it might. But this has become personal. Like an attack on my self beliefs and confidence, a violation of my intelligence. It feels like a personal score that I have to settle.
Retaking has it's own cons. Along with the high cost of a GMAT exam including official mocks in INR terms, i would have to grind for one more month leaving everything aside, since the switch to GMAT Focus from Classic may take time for my mind to sync and get in tune. Or is the Focus more or less similar to Classic? Do i retake?
If anyone has a similar story or experience, please do share. A GMAT failure that hit you so personally that you either had to leave pursuing it or had to retake it. As for me, I am still processing this and will think properly about it when the dust settles.
Thanks for reading.
abralin