Hey all,
a few weeks ago, I started to prep for the GMAT (again) to take the exam in May and I feel that stress and panic during the test are preventing me from getting my dream-score (and probably have hindered me in the past as well).
To give you a short overview over my journey so far: I started to prep in May 2020 with a sobering baseline-mock of 450 (Q20 / V31, not an official one) and goal of 660-680.
In October, I took the first test in a test center, scored a 640 (Q47 / V31) and decided to give it another, “last” try in December (in case you are interested, I made a
post about my prep back then).
However, I ended up scoring another 640 (Q43 / V35), this time through the at-home version.
After a break to take the TOEFL, I got back to GMAT prep and started with a Manhattan CAT about 3 weeks ago.
Fortunately, I scored a 640 (Q46 / V32) without going through content before that, and it even felt easy and familiar (didn’t had to guess, no timing issues, etc.). I interpreted this as a ‘good sign’ for my upcoming prep.
Last Saturday, I took a second Manhattan CAT after 3 weeks of prep to see how I evolved: a devastating 580 (Q40 / V31).
The test felt much harder, I had more problems and couldn't really concentrate at some points. I couldn't even remember some of the questions directly after I finished the CAT.
This really dragged me down and I started to question myself and the way I prep for the GMAT.
However, I realized some interesting things when I went through the exam:
During the Test, I often felt so lost and overwhelmed by the questions that I didn’t even knew how to start, which was totally different during practice or the last CAT.
It is not that I don’t know the content. I think my biggest problem is that I start to
panic, because I had similar feelings during my official exams.
Even the days before a CAT, I’m anxious because I’m scared that the result will (again) be not what I need and want.
Then, during the CAT, there is so much going on in my head: 'I don’t want to mess up this CAT,' 'I need to get the question right', 'I need to improve this time', 'Oh no, I bet I spent too long on this question', ...
Because of this, I start to make stupid mistakes that clearly cost some points:
- My brain starts to “freeze” and I suddently don’t know how to attack the simplest questions. Even questions that are usually my strength suddenly look like an abstract painting.
- I constantly think that I’m behind and start to rush. In reality, that is almost never the case: I can see my timing in the Manhattan CATs and I’m almost always within +-2 minutes of the targeted time. My brain just makes me 'feel' that I’m behind because I panic.
- I make careless errors, such as overlooking important information in the question, or mess up easy calculations and because of that, I don’t find the correct answers (and start to panic even more).
There are other 'symptoms' that I could definitely add, but I think you get the point.
As I said, it is not that I don’t know the content. When I reviewed the questions afterwards and gave them another try, most questions were no problem and I finished them easily in under 2 minutes. I set a timer for each question, but I wasn’t in 'real exam mode', so my brain was working properly.
All in all, I think that the stress and panic that I have during the test have a huge influence on what score I get and on how I improve.
I'm therefore more that thankful for any advices on how I can reduce my stress during the test.
I've read about meditation & breathing techniques, but have never seen concrete examples: maybe some of you have some recommendations?
Thank you in advance.
Best regards,
argerniki