Hi All,
I wrote a few months ago how to get a tutor. I promised that i would write an email each time after coming back from test center; either a happy or sad story. I am going to try not to convey the amount of frustration, sadness, and anger that i feel. I just finished my test and it was pure disaster. 410. Never seen a score so low... I started my journey on September with a 420, then i went to the
Manhattan gmat course, put the hours after 2 months and 1/2 i got a 460. Then i hired a tutor from
Manhattan gmat, raging from 520 - 580 my tutor has been "watching me" doing problems and he says everything i am doing is fine, just minor content areas, and a little bit of focus, nothing "too drastic". Bear with me.
2 weeks ago i score 580 using
Manhattan gmat, my tutor was expecting a 600 based on how i've worked and all, but 1 week ago i dowloaded the MBA dot com software and i got a 450, i was interrupted by my roommates all the time, and well, i had some drama that day so i thought that those situations contributed to that, and since this score was to low i could just ignore it, but from that point on 450 haunted me like Annabelle (yeah like that Doll from the movie).
In addition, i took the test and i was curiously behind the clock all the time for about 10 minutes (i arrived to the test center 10 minutes late, Cab drivers in Dubai!), i realized about this and i was more nervous and stressed than ever. I have to say that in Quant i knew i was doing awfully bad by the end of the test, but in Verbal i started really good, with 600 - 700s "hard" sentence correction questions, long passages, with 3 paragraphs, lots of technicalities and well. i was like "i am doing great", but again i was 10 minutes behind time, at the end and middle of the test i had to guess questions and it was just not good. I was always late with the test.
Some Perspective
You might say, why do you write this depressing e-mail? Well... First because i need to believe and reassurance that i am not stupid. I can tackle some of those 700 problems on time! I do not know what the F is wrong with me? Second, what do you guys recommend based on this situation?. I have to say that at this point i hate my life, in every aspect but my Job (I love my job Designing Skyscrapers and other stuff...). I am sacrificing so much for this test. I eat and drink gmat, FLASHCARDS EVERYWHERE, do problems every time i can, i stopped working out, i do not go to the Gym, neither play either tennis nor Rugby, i stopped my volunteering, going out, I had to change my apartment to keep up with the demands of this gmat lifestyle, i was dateless in Seattle and i am dateless in Dubai part because of the gmat. Since i am recent expat in Dubai, i realized yesterday while i was meditating, after checking in in a hotel to be "relaxed", that i have been so immersed in the gmat for the last 6 months since i arrived to Dubai that i haven't had the chance to interact with other people but my coworkers. Let's not talk about friendships because i have none in this country because i am obsessed with this test. I do not want to be a complainer. My mentality is always to "suck it up" and work thought it no matter what. i just want you to know my state right now, and to know based on what you've hear the best course of action for people with stories like mine.
I feel none of those sacrifices were worth it. I honestly was expecting a 620 because i know that i can get those problems right! I am not delusional when i say it. I even practiced with the MBA dot com software i was getting all those medium questions right with a hard ones wrong. My guessing is that i am taking this test too seriously.
So please help me. I was so embarrassed when i got the score, i could barely send an email to my tutor telling him the "news".
I appreciate all your comments.
Best regards,
Ricardo