Hi, I'm back and a little devastated.. took the GMAT last Saturday and it didn't go quite so well. In fact, it plummeted from my recent mock scores!
It is so shocking and embarrassing and sad, we were all set - my family and friends to absolutely celebrate over the weekend, and start submitting my B-school applications. And then we couldn't.
After panicking and crying for a while, and reaching out to friends and experts -- I realized I wasn't making any insightful conversations and just needed to take a deep breath and a break from the test. So this week I'm on a break till Sunday from all studying.
In this time, I've rested, watched - Inside Out 2 (don't miss it -- such a gem of a movie!), watched another movie - The Horse Whisperer -- of which I didn't know there was a book, so how will I ever forgive myself for having watched a movie before reading the book - I do not know yet. And am currently reading.
In this time, I've also absolutely annoyed Marty Murray, BB and some of my friends, and even my mom, I'm so sorry! With all the self-doubt brewing and next steps appearing fuzzy. However, here's where I am at -- the test went badly because I completed going through all the concepts, and didn't practice enough before going for the test. I also am yet to fix my timing and processes for quant. Faster ways to solve need to be understood. Plus, I've not practiced enough DI questions.
In this time, I've also been watching YouTube briefs from GMAT Club of students who have aced the GMAT. And what a blessing that has been -- the sheer common humanity of it, seeing people who have experienced similar situations and overcome them is so inspiring; and is also helping me move away from the scary perspective of 'only I on this entire planet have messed up GMAT, everyone else has absolutely mastered it.' Sharing the links here:
Frank has taken the classic edition, but his persistence and candid sharing of the journey helped me so much --
https://www.youtube.com/live/GDN6s6HnwB ... weGOImWlbPAnurag has also shared how he overcame a slump and it really motivated me to get back up --
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_-ItkCZ ... v&index=16Starting Monday, I am opting for TTP and will be focusing on completing concepts + practising there. This is not just to practice, I've also seen that I'm unable to pinpoint which areas need more work all the time, and the pitfalls -- which TTP will help assess, taking that stress away from me and helping me focus on prep. Also, will continue LSAT Qs for verbal. I will also be taking the
Experts Global mock tests because I don't want to run out of the official mocks.
In my journey so far, a conversation with Marty Murray earlier helped me break the plateau of verbal 75-76 and cross into 80s. I'm so so grateful for him to absolutely kind and on-point feedback of 'what were you even thinking' D And Scott of TTP for helping me figure my TTP account login -- I was unable to sign up.
And ofcourse the GMAT club - for the debriefs, the tool to simply connect with students, and also the search tool that shows up ALL the questions, it has helped me find solutions to the mock tests.
Here I am, with immense trepidation, setting sail again! And sounds very filmy, but I just feel no matter the result, this journey with GMAT itself has taught me so much, changed my thinking for the better, that it is a win in any case. I'm so so grateful to GMAT for being this amazing, challenging exam that makes one step up - not just their thinking and efforts, but also overall well-being. It is a very thoughtful one indeed. And for that, regardless of the result, I am very grateful.
Hope you're hanging in there and prepping for the exam. Just in case you need to hear this today - you are a capable and absolutely worthy person just by virtue of being a human being, away from whatever stage of prep you're in and whatever is your last score. Nothing will ever take away that internal you and your spark, and the value of your presence on this planet! So know that as you march on

All the best!
Happy studying