gempony
I m fed up and tired. I used to think GMAT is something that can be conquered with proper strategies and hard work - that might be true for some people, just not me.
Hi gempony.
It's appears that you put in the hard work part, and got a quant score that reflects that work, but didn't do the proper strategy part for verbal, unfortunately.
Having read what I just said, you may be wondering how it could be that, if you didn't really learn verbal, you scored so much higher on verbal on the practice tests than you score on the actual GMAT.
Probably, what has occurred is that whatever resource you used for preparing bases much of what it says about GMAT verbal and the verbal practice question it provides on the verbal questions that appear in the GMAT Prep tests. So, assuming that those six practice tests that you took were in fact the six GMAT Prep tests, you ended up learning how to answer the verbal questions that appear in GMAT Prep practice tests without actually learning how to handle GMAT verbal questions in general.
Furthermore, some verbal strategies that are taught by GMAT prep companies don't work, but they may have seemed to work when you took the GMAT Prep tests, because of what I said above.
So, most likely some things you "learned" for verbal actually ensured that you would not score high when you took the test.
You aren't the first to have this experience, and you won't be the last. Many many people have had this experience.
So, your move now is to learn verbal in a way that will actually work.
Fortunately some of what you have learned about verbal you will be able to use to hit your score goal. However, other aspects of it you will likely have to unlearn. Also, you will have to learn things that you did not learn.
So, I suggest switching to a different verbal resource. Also, you may want to consider hiring a reputable and experienced verbal tutor to help you unlearn certain things that you learned that don't actually work.
Clearly, you can master GMAT verbal. Just, in order to do so, you have to make some changes to what you have been doing to prepare.