Took my first GMAT today in a test center. Scored 640. To say that I am feeling devastated would be an understatement.
I prepared for this day for 6 months. Before starting my prep, I took the Kaplan mock test and scored 560 (35Q, 31V). I knew I had a long way to go before I could sit in an official exam. So I set myself to work.
I took a couple of online courses including
Target Test Prep (Quant only, where I must have spent at least 120-130 hours). Also studied Manhattan quant guides as well as the Veritas prep books for quant. For verbal portion, I studied Powerscore CR Bible and restricted myself to official verbal questions only. But I did solve almost all of them. I did maintain an
error log throughout my prep, and did revise my mistakes for both quant and verbal. Was feeling quite confident at the end of Feb so booked an exam for today. Also took the first two practice exams. Scored 720 on first practice (V42, Q47). Was quite happy. Reviewed my mistakes and then took the second official mock and, the first shocker, instead of improving or at least maintaining my score, I scored a 680 (42Q, 41V)! But I thought it was mostly because I panicked for some reason in the quant section and ended up spending a lot of time on the first 6-8 questions and then couldn't really recover. Ended up making some silly mistakes on easier questions that I knew I should have solved correctly. Anyway, I thought it was a one-off so I proceeded to take my first official exam today.
I found the verbal portion harder than expected, esp the SC questions, which I always thought were my strong point. Quant was so-so. Was expecting another 680-ish as I thought I had done a bit better on quant in comparison to the second mock but had not done as good as I did in the first mock. Was shocked that I had scored 640! And to my surprise, it was the verbal portion that I had totally messed up: Q45, V32. I could not believe it. Didn't even think twice and cancelled my score. That score is an insult. And I let myself down.
Here's the thing: I know I CAN score 720+, and I will stop at nothing short of that score. But I don't know what I need to do to get there considering that I have spent a lot of time and money already. Right now, I feel empty. And clueless. Any suggestions would be welcome.