well, to continue on with this story, i decided to tell the adcoms that i was retaking the GMATs after all. everything else on my application was great - i just needed to work on the GMATs...
i took the GMAT again this past weekend after 1.5 months of studying everyday and every weekend, and sadly, i scored 30 points lower than my previous score. that was my third time taking the test.
honestly, i don't know if i have enough gas in the tank to go on anymore. the first time i took the test, i signed up for a princeton review course and studied for about 4 months. the second time, i studied dilligently for another 4 months....
i've read really inspiring stores on this forum about people retaking the GMATs 4-5 times and finally getting their dream score...and that's great. but i'm starting to think that maybe the gods are trying to tell me something. sometimes u just gotta accept your limitations, ya know?
after i emailed the adcoms about retaking the test, they both replied, wished me luck, and said they'll follow up with me in early march. guess i have no way of avoiding this. i don't know how to even word my email..."hi i just retook the GMATs...and scored lower than before. sorry. bye!"

how do i even begin to tell them...?
i am tired, sad, but mostly, disappointed in myself.