Caution! The glory of 700+ might not be there in this experience but I thought the experience is worth sharing. Please don't read this if you hate long debriefs or you are looking for a GMAT 720ish score debrief.
Being a fictional author by hobby, it's quite tough to summarise paragraphs on myself but I will try my best.
My GMAT journey started from the year September'17. I took a few classes from a coaching institute and hovered over some tips and tricks videos and sat down for the GMAT, scoring a disaster 570. ( Q42, v26).
This score was just a mild weak knee type of feeling because I knew I had made a mistake sitting for the test as a half baked candidate ( not so fully prepared).
This experience was back in November'17. Anyways I started again with a fresh heart. I got up with e-gmat and
Manhattan GMAT books and their mock series. In a month or two I had improved my scores on the mocks and I was getting about 620-650. I landed up with a better score of 660 on my second attempt (January'18).
Seeing that my GMAT is taking me nowhere, I stopped. By that time I thought I have tried both modes of study and nothing is helping. I thought maybe GMAT is not my call. By that time, I was really fascinated with Indian armed forces and navy admissions. These services were demanding a lot. I applied to them and got rejections there too. (Albeit the preparation itself helped me reduce my body fat by whooping 20 kilos!!)
By June end I was rejected from my MBA dreams, my armed forces dreams and also few interviews for a job switch. I work at Qualcomm, a leading industry, but too highly demanding in nature. It's 10 hours of work on an average which extends to 12 hours as well. Given the small amount of time I get, it's tough to put other things into the day. Just out of college and this much of daily work came out not good to me. However, I somehow did some cool projects in these times.
Once I was done with the GMAT in January, and after my few rejections I started reading novels ( Paulo Coelho's Alchemist was the initiator) and in a month or two I had written a manuscript and published a novel by may'18. It was a spy thriller and the selling count till now is 700ish. Again not that much successful but decent. Isb was around the corner and its ads were calling me in my dreams to have a go even with a GMAT of 660. (Q48, v34, ir 1).
I knew it was a subpar score but I had been good in academics and another scope of life. Given the work I did for Qualcomm and the book I wrote plus the trees I planted in my hometown, the CGPA's I scored in college and school, which are constantly 90ish % at all levels and the high score certificates I got, kind of helped me get to the interview at ISB in round 1 September'18. It was a nice experience until again it led to a rejection. I regretted to apply to MBA and again this cycle of opting out of MBA kicked in. Peers and friends that I had made through left for USC Marshall, isb, imperial and I was yet here again with a job to do and a novel to sell.
I again got into this novel marketing strategies and writing stories. But given the series of rejections gave me a quite low feeling, hampering my creative edge to write. By this time I had opted for some interview calls and I got a bulk of rejection emails that are still kind of scars in the mailbox.
Then again I thought let's prepare for the GMAT. I started again in Jan'19. The frustration was high and work was on peak. I was asked to mentor new joiners and was put on some two-three projects at the same time ( not to forget the support work Indians have to provide). Well, with such a load I had quite a few disagreements with my manager and managed to reduce my timings from 10 hours to 9 hours ( one extra hour in hand ). Then in April after Ton of preparation for the GMAT ( as there was a huge break), I landed with a devastating 640 (q50, v27). I canceled the score and contacted CJ (
ChiranjeevSingh ). I had heard a lot about him and I had read his reviews on GMAT club.
Well, if you read the testimonials it's full of his praises, and I have nothing more to add on the nuances on which he focuses and struggles with you he does but it was an experience of another kind to learn from him.
Apart from the sessions I had, I learned a few things that probably is gonna help me to do better in other aspects of life as well. He had this collection of good articles on his website that is about learning a new skill and inculcating skills that GMAT teaches us in our daily lives.
CJ I think is not just a GMAT coach, but he qualifies to be a life coach as well( some more points on this later). I had few cr sessions with cj and few rc sessions as these are the areas that pull me down, it helped me gain perspective. I started applying the skills in day to day life. After a good discussion and prop prep with good notes and managing work at the office in the most optimal way I could, I got a devastating 620 (,q47, v27) on 28th August'19. The score I was getting in my mocks ranged from 680-720 but here in real one, I was always struggling with 620s-650s. I literally cursed myself to not let go of the MBA dream. I had thought that maybe an MBA is not this one thing I should be doing. Maybe there are other things ( I still have this in my mind, and I am gonna explain it).
Long story short, over a call CJ advised me to give a shot at the exam in the next 20 days without worrying much and even studying much.
At this point in time, I thought a bit rationally and came to the conclusion that what's the harm? I should give the exam once. I mean I had seen worse by this time and you can't go beyond the rock bottom. So I registered on the mba.com for 23 Sept randomly.
Given this thought, I literally stopped preparing and I published an anthology ( a collection of 12 stories from 12 authors from across India) and I started reading novels. Probably the frustration I had was killing me and these stories through the classical novels canceled out this personal agony I was having. Some of the classics I read ( the great Gatsby, pride and prejudice, digital fortress and Cryptonomicon- a work in progress).
Apart from that, I started writing a story that is already 15 chapters now and is based on a quest for a treasure hunt that involves the concept of quantum mechanics and ancient Indian scriptures. I started a mini-course on cryptography and started researching in my interesting areas- cryptography and network topology (a few things I am still doing at the breaks I have at my office). This is my debrief for the last 20 days before the GMAT on 23 September.
And then on 23rd morning, reading through research papers of complex numbers, Quantum computing and developing my story, I went for the GMAT and got this 690(q50 v32).
People would say that it's again a subpar score if compared to a 740 but it's only if I stop here but I won't.
Given some achievements I have had in last year, the courses I have completed and the works I have published and the score I got, I would go forward with my application in some business school but yes this gave me a desire to fight back and the go-ahead to study and get a better score.
The main point of writing this long post was to focus on the last 20 days. On CJ's LinkedIn I had read this small blog by Mark Manson ( although he explains the same in his book - the subtle art of not giving a ****), about a task that the Navy seals have to go with. They have their hands tied and they are released in water ( 20 feet deep or so swimming pool). The ones who give much time to the task are selected. In this task, the ones who try to swim and maintain their body above the water level fail first. The only trick for this experiment is to let go. If you do that you won't burn your extra energy and letting go may draw you down at first but the buoyancy force of the water itself will get you to rise again. I quite relate to it. This is the biggest takeaway that CJ through his constant guide (even today) has put in my head.
Usually, we take these exams with so much fear and pressure that we kill our real self and screw up. Have you considered writing the GMAT with a craze that a child has in kindergarten? I might have screwed up on the cr section this time but the curiosity that I had to solve these questions this time might have helped me go through.
Is it a score to boast off? Well, I don't know. Should I apply or retake again? I can have the answer only after I try but yes this score is a work in progress and that is why there is an asterisk on 690. It shows that the match is not over

There is a juxtaposed feeling and it's similar to what Gatsby might have felt seeing the green light that came from Daisy's dock. He had everything in life but he came back for Daisy. Such is a love to improvise and I shall keep it and if you have come till this point reading through then you should too have this zeal to improvise and look at the success as a green light at a distance on the other side of the dock!
Finally, apart from CJ (
ChiranjeevSingh ) I also had a chance to get small guidance by
VeritasKarishma ma'am,
GMATNinja , and of course
Bunuel the great. I give my regards to all of you for helping me at least to be competent and letting this hope to do better in life stay intact.
As there could be no Sachin without Achrekar, no Rocky without Mickey and no p.v. Sindhu without Gopichand, there could be no high achievers without such fantastic experts and my gratitude to you.
Regards,
Rishav
** Just an Update**
I got an admit at Indian School Of Business.
Thanks to all the mentors at gmatclub and all of you as the community.