This is my first post in this forum. I am having a nervous breakdown. I gave a mock test today and scored really badly.
Background:- Engineer
- I am a very slow reader (always have)
- Non-native speaker
I started preparing for GMAT 3 months ago. My GMAT journey so far:
1st Month- I scored 320 on my diagnostic test. I am a non-native speaker. I knew my verbal score will be low. I completed CR, SC, and RC from
manhattan books in the first 15 days of prep. I started practicing through OG soon after that. I read that I need to focus initially on getting answers correct but with that strategy, I am not able to attend to all the questions in the exam. The first month, I had spent 6-7 hrs practicing as my workload was very less. My scores were 410 (V12 Q23), 490 (V17 Q42), 590 (V27, Q44)
2nd & 3rd Month - Due to work pressure, I was able to spend hardly 1-2 hrs daily. My scores had been dropping every week since then. I think stress is taking over me. I am not able to sleep properly. I am not able to balance GMAT and job. I felt like someone took away a chance to complete my dream. I am losing confidence day by day. I don't know how to reduce test anxiety (started meditation but not helping).I wasn't paying attention to quant in last one month. I know I can improve it to Q49-50. I am really worried about my verbal score. I am not able to guage my current level. These are my scores in the last month - 570 (V26, Q42), 530 (V21, Q42), 470, 430, 450 (Verbal scores are dropping day by day)
Prep Strategy so far:I am preparing through OG only. I am following GMAT club since day 1. I read each and every solution of wrong answers in the GMAT club. To build a strong foundation, I knew that I have to spend time on both right and wrong answers. I followed it religiously. I have built sufficient knowledge in verbal. I can even solve hard questions (50% accuracy). But I am confused between 2 options most of the time. I also review error logs sometimes.
After 2 months, I feel lost in my preparation. I read a lot of articles and debriefs on GMAT club at the time in hopes of figuring out how to deal with this situation. Now I am confused about which plan to follow. Whether I should focus on easy questions or hard questions. Not planning to join any traditional coaching/ online classes. Will not prefer mass level teaching. I feel hiring a personal tutor would help me. It would be great If someone can recommend any personal tutor.Goal: My Target score is 680+, 2021 intake