tl;dr 10th: 93.4, 12th: 95.8, BBA: 87.14 (Rank 2, IIM Ranchi), 4 conference proceedings, 2 startups (>60l revenue/yearly; 65% margin). Not scoring good in CAT/GMAT. Sure about MBA. Confused about prep and admission (overthinking).
I wished to articulate my thoughts and seek advice.I secured 93.4% and 95.8% in 10th (2019) and 12th (2021) grades.
I started a PowerPoint agency in 2020. I had the privilege to work with WHO, and BlackRock (voluntary - charity event). We've sold our template to government agencies and multiple Fortune 500 companies. It runs on auto-pilot currently and makes ~$12k annually.
This early success blindsighted me. I thought I did not require a college education. Luckily, my parents put some sense into me.
After joining IIM Ranchi's IPM in 2021, I realised that the courses were genuinely interesting. I fell in love with academia and binge-reading. I tried writing (basic, preliminary) research papers and have 4 conference proceedings (PAN-IIM, ISDSI, ICHSP); secured rank 2 in my batch (87.14%); also created the official website for the college.
In 2023, we co-founded an EdTech platform (for IPMAT). I love building a brand from scratch and seeing it come to life. I know how to design and edit well. We've crossed Rs. 50 lakhs (revenue) this calendar year. Our profit margins are also good.
In 2024, I exited IIM Ranchi with a BBA. Why? I wanted to work on the start-up (timing felt crucial). Plus, I scored 2 marks in CAT's QA so BLACKIS were not an option.
What now?Every time I seek advice, I get told not to look at an MBA (currently).
To be candid: I miss the ecosystem of an institute. I loved talking with my peers (and not on just discord). Submitting case-comps and assignments at 11.58pm gave me a rush of adrenaline. I miss presenting fun topics in front of the class and learning things that I would have never googled.
My parents want me to get a master's degree at the earliest.
I feel that I've matured a lot since the exit. I've also understood businesses better: learnt not to ignore HR (I used to underestimate them due to my extreme bias towards lean startups). I learnt how to control my creative impulses and delegate better (we have 40+ people working with us).
I believe that I would have a deeper appreciation towards the subjects I'd study. I know that I can contribute to the classroom in a nuanced manner. I'll be able to better understand the case-studies. I feel that I would improve as a person, who would be better equipped to improve the business.
The problem:I am unable to perform in my CAT mocks because I haven't given it the time and discipline that it requires. My mind gets distracted and I try changing my tools (let's do GRE instead) instead of improving my competency with standardised exams.
I can do CAT's VA, not GMAT's. I can do GMAT's QA (to an extent), not CAT's. I blank out with CAT LRDI but GMAT's Data Insights is much more doable. I am not this bad with college mid-terms and end-terms. I hope that by giving GMAT enough time, I improve my scores.
The PGP-YL feels like a god-send because I know that my profile can help compensate for my average entrance exam score. I can still appear for the interview without an 'exam-cutoff' unlike BLACKIS.
My solution:I'll go offline wrt start-up and focus only on the exam from tomorrow. I'll remove my access from work (no distractions). I'll write a diagnostic test for GMAT after a quick QA revision tomorrow.
I'm worried about not scoring good enough and the ambiguity regardings standardisation of CAT, GMAT, GRE troubles me even when I know that it is not under my control (will a 90%ile in GMAT be the same as a 90%ile in CAT, if so, let me just focus on CAT etc.)
I thought I was decent at VA, but the critical reasoning in GMAT goes over my head. I feel mentally exhausted after doing 5-6 questions and I am unable to derive energy from the process (unlike work). However, I'll suck it up and get it done to the best of my abilities.
Thoughts?