550 GMAT - 4th Attempt - I don't know what to do

I am not even sure where to begin. I am frustrated in myself. More so about why I cannot obtain a 650+ score than even getting into business school. Just for the sake of a human with a brain. I have spent about 4 years studying for the GMAT (last 2 years I have taken my study very seriously - cut down social life - no partying - isolated myself). I see the GMAT as a disease to be honest at this point given my scores. In October 2019, I had hope when I wrote the exam (3rd attempt) as I got 610 - Q47 V28 (33rd percentile in SC, 55 in CR and 55 in RC). Previously on my second attempt, I scored 590 Q35 V35 and the first attempt 510 Q39 V23ish.

I thought with another month of studying for Verbal and trying to perfect Quant, I would score higher than 610. I focused primarily on Verbal as I did horrible my third attempt in Verbal.

From October 24, 2019 (day after third attempt on the GMAT) to about the end of November:

Quant
I did custom GMATCLUB quizzes per topic (aside from perms/combs and geometry) to ensure my mind was still sharp in Quant (quizzes were about 20-30 questions each – 500/600 Level). I did not do a lot of quizzes, just quizzes here and there. To be honest, I have practiced so many questions available in the GMATClub Quiz bank that I am used to the feel of 500-600 Level GMATCLUB Quant Quizzes and my accuracy was decent per topic (70% or higher). The only two topics that I struggled with on the GMAT Club 500-600 Level Quiz questions were Work problems and Absolute Values (about 50% accuracy on 20 questions). A week prior to my exam I was focused a lot on Quant by reviewing the TTP course - creating custom quizzes per chapter - medium to hard level questions (all chapters aside from perms and combs/probability and Geometry - this course really helped me bump up my Quant score from 35 to 47). I thought to myself, if I scored Quant 47 without studying Perms/Combs and Geo, I should be able to repeat the Q47 score or at least close to it (44-47 range).

Verbal
SC and CR - I registered for the e-gmat Verbal course and completed about 25% of the verbal section. The SC section was taking me longer to complete than I had expected - I thought to myself there was no way I would be able to complete the verbal course in a month’s time with doing enough practice. I changed my Verbal approach by doing medium to hard level SC and CR (official guide questions available per topic on this forum). I read through the Manhattan SC book (I have read it many times) to make sure I did not forget basic grammar. My accuracy was not the best in SC, but I made notes and tried to understand where I went wrong. A week prior to my exam, I completed some medium to hard level SC questions on the practice questions purchased from mba.com - my accuracy was about 81%. I felt confident for SC. I made sure I broke sentences down into subject-verb pairs or modifiers and take things from there – read each sentence bit by bit analyzing the bits. More so, I was getting most of the medium to hard level questions on CR correct (the only question types I was struggling with were bold face and inference questions). I practiced about a 100-total medium to hard level CR questions from the Official Guides. For CR, initially I did not time myself as I really wanted to use logic and not rush into things – this strategy really helped as I explained to myself why each of the 4 answers are wrong and why the one I picked is right (my accuracy increased studying this way). My timing improved from about 5 minutes per question to about 2:50 minutes (there were very few questions overall that took me longer than 2 minutes – they were extremely hard – as in GMATCLUB rating of 75-95% hard).

RC - I was doing extremely hard level LSAT passages - getting at most 2 wrong answers out of a set of 5 or 7. I was making sure that I understood each passage before attempting the questions and given the complexity of the passages, I was spending about 16-18 minutes on each (I completed about 3 passages a day)

Day of Exam

Heading into the exam that I wrote today, I felt confident overall with Quant and Verbal. During the exam, I felt the Verbal section was easier compared to the question types I practiced for SC, CR and RC. My timing wasn’t the best. At question 11, I had 40 minutes left. At around question 24, I had about 12 minutes left, and I had to really rush into things and move fast with some of the SC questions and even guessed some RC passage questions and CR. I found Quant to be hard – I had a decent mix of Geometry, Perms/Combs and Probability. At about Question 22, I had 8 minutes left on Quant and had to hurry up and guess the last 6-7 questions (from questions 1-10 I had to guess about 3, so total I had to guess on about 9-10 questions). I started off Quant with good timing – at question 11 I had about 41 minutes left. During the middle set of questions (11-20) I spent too much time on some questions I did not know how to complete or approach. All in all, once the exam was over, I saw 550 Q40 V26 and cancelled my score. I was in disbelief in myself. I just could not process how it happened and literally just had no reaction – I sat there frozen and then left the centre.

I do not like making up excuses, but the last 2 attempts at the exam, I was not able to sleep the night before. I have noticed my mind is so active. When I woke up today, I felt tired. To make things even better, my exam was at 8am. For all the exams I have written, they were all scheduled at 8am. Some say a good sleep and even a week of rest is good, which I agree. However, one cannot just score so bad as I did given my practice, multiple attempts and confidence.

I do not know what to do. I need some suggestions. I need advice. My US business school dreams are shattered so I will stick to Canada. I really do not know how to approach my study going forward. I am going to apply R2 deadlines but I really want to re-write the exam. I know a 610 is not as competitive of a score for top schools in Canada. I want to re-write the exam – not to prove to business schools – to prove to myself that I am at least in a decent percentile of overall scores. Yes, a 650 will do wonders for me in terms of business school applications and I want to score higher than 610. But I have taken this 550 score very personally. To put things into perspective, I feel like trash.