the phrase UN"comfortably numb" (nod to pink flod) comes to mind. my gosh. where should i start?
about the fact that the GMAT's computer adaptive test makes it virtually impossible to properly gauge whether youre doing well or doing as piss poor as you think you are? its like: "wow that question was easy, i killed it. wait a second, that question was easy!!! i must be doing poorly. ahh shhht. what is going on here??? im fkd!"
oh. yeah. and its not enough to know the GMAT material, to know the GMAT traps, to know how to get the GMAT answer. you have to know the shortcuts and then answer all the questions in under two minutes and not make any mistakes! and then when you manage to get a good score and start writing applications, you realize that the GMAT was the easy part!
the essays. OMG! the only way i could describe to people that have not gone through the process is that its like (pardon me) giving your medically-untrained-self a mental colonoscopy! why this. why then. why now. describe this time. describe that challenge. describe you. trace your present status through the depth of your being and back to when you formulated your ambitions in the womb. i mean tell us what really motivates you. oh yeah and do it in under 300 words. but make it colorful. make it stylish. make it interesting. and dont forget to stay on point and answer the question. capiche? i felt like, who am i the cross pollinated child of gabriel garcia marquez and bill clinton??? give me a break adcoms! arrrrrghh!
(my ego chimes in) and where do bschools get off telling me i need to be better than 90th percentile on a global examination, which really probably means better than 96% of the population. then i need to have essays that read like manna from heaven. get recommendation recs that complement my essays and add new interesting dimensions.... just to get a shot at a 14% acceptance rate? just to sit through the agony of waiting and doubting myself and regaining hope and perspective and recycling it all over and over again? and then later on cough up $80+k to pay for the privilege if i get in? sometimes i wanna smack myself on the back of the head and say "why in the h-e-double hockey sticks did you put us through this?"
aaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggh! ok. all better now. its out of my hands. i did the best i could with what i have. im going back to try and concentrate on nailing my booth interview now. thanks for making this forum topic.
haha. im sure none of you want to sit next to me in a classroom after that rant. that was definitely a very high pitched whine. sorry! i promise im not really even a part time b*tcher. lol. this roller coaster ride among all the other stuff i have going on has been taxing.
good luck everyone!