Hi,
I go by Pingala, from Los Angeles. I have a long and sordid journey with the GMAT. I work in the non-profit world, but had started a small business venture on the side as an alternative income source. The professional work I did lended itself well to law school, but after a year of studying the law it was apparent that I should have stuck to the business trajectory I had earlier plotted out. Except it was thwarted by my first attempt with the GMAT.
See I suck at taking standardized tests and I am a mediocre student. If I get really curious about something , I become compulsive and totally own the subject. Its why I speak three languages, I love traveling and enjoy learning about new cultures, and why I am taking Mandarin courses at a local community college. After I left law school I was aimless and had no desire to go back to non-profit work nor did I really now what to do next. There just was no plan for failure. So I have been trying to get back on some track for the past two years. I actually want to be a productive member of society again, but with a substantive skill set beyond my BA non-profit experience.
I eventually settled on the MBA route and took the GMAT but had another abysmal performance. Since that second test though I have traveled some more, was invited to sit on a non-profit board, did some leadership trainings, wrote things that got published, and got a chance to meet some entrepreneurs who really inspired me and gave a perspective that there was a way to bring together my "feel good/ do good" personality with the business side of things. Now that I have a bit more clarity, I feel like my attempt at taking the GMAT and pursuing business school won't be abortive. (I have tried studying for the GMAT on two separate occasions, even signed up to take a the test next week!)
I realize my problem is that I am stabbing in the dark alone. I am not approaching this test in a way that breaks it down and lays bare its components. I also have allowed the social pressures of performing and figuring out my life to distract me from the actual focus of getting the mechanics of the test down. Because of this I have been working in my own silo, away from anyones watchful gaze, in the hopes that my failure (or success) were mine alone. This last part has been really agonizing because the whole idea of being isolated and alone in this struggle depresses me.
So here I am, signing up for this forum, putting myself out there for support, feedback and critical evaluation (possibly..maybe?).